1 week later

7 lbs 4.8 oz    19" long  born at 10:32 AM July 15

Baby Jeddi *new spelling for me--I'm trying out nicknames* has been alive for 1 week and 1 day. I confess, he is AMAZING and I am enjoying being a new mommy again. However, the one thing that has me frightened out of my mind is my firstborn. 

He cannot be trusted.

Every moment he is awake, I am conscious of where he is and what he is doing. I am so afraid he's going to try to "help" and hurt the baby or worse. He wanted to cover him up so he put a dryer sheet on top of his head. I was standing right there and pulled it off -- but what if I hadn't been???

It's mentally exhausting. I am so thankful that my mother-in-law is here. She and Jeremy have been doing lots of projects together and he has had one-on-one time with her so I could have one-on-one time with Jedidiah and my healing sore bruised tape-burned body.

So, I am spending time in my room, trying to sleep between feedings. I've got an hour left until the little one is hungry again so I have to go.